i know i said hateful things to you. and for those things I am sorry. I have made so many mistakes these past few months and i want you to forgive me…i know this will be a long process for you. I am just having a very hard time in our present situation and I feel like its tearing me up. I miss my family and feel this obligation to them, and I feel a resentment towards you because of things you’ve said and done to me in the past…and also because i feel like you’re partially what is keeping me away from them.